by Paul Hanson Clark
i have one moment in my life that i return to
when i was hungover working at zio’s doing some food prep work & there was a tomato that looked like a heart & i set it aside to look at
then i cut myself & was bleeding & i started looking at this tomato heart wondering why i was working at zio’s cutting myself
& i felt like i MUST leave zio’s and get in my car and drive to new orleans & talk to eva
but then i became paralyzed by some strange fear that if i did that i would have what i wanted & still be miserable
it dawned on me i would probably never do anything that was important to me
& i would just do shit like cut myself while looking at heart shaped tomatoes for the rest of my life